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Here it is. My first post. My first post on my millionth blog website. Its funny how things change. LiveJournal use to be in. WordPress use ...
Sometimes I just get so many emotions flowing through me and its really hard to deal with. I know this sounds weird but I can feel so many ...
Sometimes I feel like everyone is moving on and I'm just standing still.
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Monday, April 18, 2011
I'm going to apologize in advance. My mind is so ADD that Ill think of a thought and then go off onto another subject...it makes my writing scattered and it goes everywhere. I'm also really bad with punctuation and all of that mess..
I don't know what I want to do with my life...actually I do. You see.....I want to travel forever...I want to work random and odd jobs for the rest of my life in different states, countries, and continents...jobs that don't require a degree....jobs that give me spending money......but I can't say that out loud......that's not acceptable in our society. I have to work hard and become a Doctor or a Lawyer or some other bullshit job that I will never be smart enough to get (lets be real...). For now, ill stick with the traveling.
If you really want to know me, here it is.
My name is Dakotah. I spent 18 years spelling my middle name wrong. I have 2 dogs. I love Dateline. Every time I take a photo I think "I hope this will look good on Facebook."I make situations very awkward. My doctor tried to give me diet pills because he thinks that I am too fat. I have the worlds worst road rage. I listen to music way too much. My favorite movie is American Beauty and my favorite food is pineapples. Oh, and I think that all of the medical and social issues in the world will be solved by DR. Mari Juana. That's really all that matters.
I hope by now that you do not think that I am a uncaring, ruthless individual because I'm really not. I love people. I accept everyone and I try not to judge people. (lets be real...everyone judges everyone...its human nature. I just try to stop myself when I realize that I am doing it) I believe in beauty. I believe there is beauty in everyone and in everything. Ricky Fitts said it best, "Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in." That's how I feel about life. This makes it hard for me as well. Sometimes I feel that life is too hard to live up to because of all the beauty Ive seen. How can I live up to any of it? Suddenly, I feel so small in this huge world.
I'd love to say that they have made me who I am (they have) but who would I be if I hadn't made them?
I am a good person.
Does anyone else feel so distant from their family? I do.
I keep searching and experiencing so many different feelings. I'm waiting for the right feeling. I'm waiting for the gut-in-stomach-punch-feeling to happen to me. I don't know what its going to mean or what I'm suppose to do when I feel it. But I feel like that is what I'm wondering around searching and looking for.